THIS IS NOT LOVE

this it can't be love is to beautifoul to deep to sufocating it seems like a dream that will end soon and painfoul i love him that's what i feel i think he lovees me too that's what i almost belive but it can't last is just too...too fuckin' beautfoul and scarry in the same time why am i so afraid so scared terrefied.....i know it's going to hurt me so bad.....and take me back in that big hole of suffering i don't wanna cry again alone to scream of pain so afraid that that's goin' to happend just thinking of what is going to feel like losing this love again.....it makes me cry just this thought know what....i dont want to think abouth this right now i feel happy and complete i will enjoy every moment every second with him cause somehow this will be my memories so....im just going to let the time run...see what happends by the way YOU should know that i love u so so enormes so dont hurt me please.............